Warbling mail of a very long tale

Do you notice when a warbling cat is strolling around?
Do you see the life or keep looking down on the gray cement?

I notice the cat! Because I see life and strive for the day when I will not, when I am alive instead of wishing I am...

I always think that there is nothing all you people can say, to change my mind, which is the case. But hence only when I feel discouraged. Because whenever I am encouraged and given nurturance, then I am able to look at different paths with different ways. In addition, I thank the realists for warmingly having a clear understanding of me with their kind helping hands. Given this, everything just seems slightly better: Fears gone. Stress relieved. Motivation ON. On a side note this makes me wonder, if shutting myself down this way for indulgement of the ego is a defense mechanism of some sort.

The american eagle was once almost extinct but it came back

I climb and when I reach the top I'll fly

Goals are results intended to be attained that are held close to the heart of each person subjectively. Patience is required in order to reach each goal and the path towards them is frustrating and long, almost long gone. Usually a feeling of 'save me please' is experienced. A desperate craving for a knight to show up and fill my deep empty space of non-yet-accomplishments is wished for, putting me on the right easy path towards my dreams.

My dreams:

• Have the best grades in my class
• Move to America
• Attend University of California, Los Angeles
• Become a psychiatrist
• Become a famous actress
• Attend a beauty pageant
• Win the nobel price