Tuesday, January 15, 2013

When the nightmare ends

Reeling through an endless fall,
An ever-living ghost of what once was.
The whole thing tumbling down,
Maybe you even liked it that way,
But you're better off now..

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

A strong vine with fragile flowers

Bright like a star,
Strong as a hickory,
Fragile as a flower.

Some say: “it depends on how a member reacts.” Yes, that is true...
I am a product of a broken family.
I reacted in a kind of silence, initially. Acted out shortly after, had my own kind of addictions and developed despicable behaviors; defiance to my close ones, avoidance of school yet acquiring of knowledge. An agitated inner..
I felt that I was destined to experience only broken dreams. Once what had been a beautiful view far on the horizon, was visible but very gray. It was really a devastating experience.

It took me a long time to reReact. All of which would not have been possible without the set of people sent my way to take my eyes off the ground.
~ They did not give up on me.

As every action has a reaction, my actions were completely counterintuitive to my dreams at that time.

Though still, I can say that I reacted positively. Not to the incidence of being an only child to a shattered family, but to God for guiding and showing me that life is beautiful and full of surprises!

Nowadays I am more likely to surpass hindrances, eager to not take defeat. I started coping with patience and all it includes. As a result I have started to taste some sweetness of success.
I study hard so that I learn many things from four sides of the classroom. I have meet many kinds of people whom I hear beautiful and inspiring stories that mold me into a motivated optimistic person.
Although life is a mess and there are times when I want to give up, still I choose to move on. There are no dead ends!

I am not even halfway through where i want to be but I have worked hard to get to where i am. I prayed for guidance and asked for His abiding help to strengthen me. I started to let go of the things which are not meant for me. Though it hurt, I began to see that things pay off whenever the good things happened. And surely they do. Ever since, I truly believe that “everything happens for a reason.”

There are ocean size of lessons in life, some I have learned and the rest continuously endlessly learning;
To be be thrifty so that I could be able to sustain my other needs. To manage my time and prioritize things to meet deadlines. To appreciate everything in life. How to not take the people I love for granted. To be thankful for everything that happens, be it good or bad. To love and be loved in return. To sacrifice my love for someone special, in behalf of my dreams and for my family. To accept whatever outcome in every decision I make. To be patient in dealing with other people. To accept that my life is different from my other friends. To surrender my ego just to have smoother relationships with people. To let go of my pride to gratify other people's needs. To accept other people's mistakes though they shouldn’t be. To live far from my family.
Most of all I learned to accept that this is my life – full of ups and downs. And at the end of the dark tunnel, I find the light leading to what good life can offer.

Unexpected trials come but I am strong enough to face it and most importantly, God is always there, perfectly on time, pouring His undying love and overflowing graces.

Pristine ~ growing up